And The Time Has Come...

My youngest is over 18 months old and it is time for me to have my body back and for the breastfeeding to stop. Out of all my kids he is the one that is being the most stubborn about weaning. The fits for the boobie are beyond ridiculous. So far I have him to only nursing at night. I think one more week and then get him off completely!
But when I come to think of it I am kind of sad to be weaning. This will be my last baby I nurse. I love breastfeeding just absolutely love it but I feel in my heart it is time. I love the bonding and just seeing him look at me while he is nursing but some times it has become a burden like when we are out and about and he is pulling at my shirt or when I am trying to do dishes and he is standing in front of me pulling on my shirt saying boobie, boobie, boobie! Plus it is like he has an alarm on them and if my husband comes anywhere near them he wakes up or decides he needs me! LOL! As much as I will miss it it will also be a relief to know when he is thirsty he can just get his sippy instead of me finding a place to sit and nurse!

I Hate Shopping

I actually don't hate shopping for anything else but clothes for myself! I could shoe shop all day but for some reason I hate clothes shopping. I never used to be like this when I was skinny but now that I am "fluffy" I hate the way everything fits and looks on me. I am probably being hard on myself but I want to feel comfortable.
I have my goddaughter's quince to go to in less then 3 weeks and cannot for the life of me find a dress. I went to DEB's, BIG MISTAKE, everything there is for 5'11 and 120 lb girls! I went to Sears and JC Penny and all I find there in my size are dresses that look like table clothes. Maybe I am looking in the wrong place! All I want is a dress that is in style, is gonna hide my fat rolls, make me feel confident and that I will fell comfortable in. Is that too much to ask?
My SIL tells me to just pick one and that nobody is going to be looking at me. Well maybe not but I am the godmother so I would like to look nice and not have people saying "Damn, Amanda looks rough!" LOL. I have thought maybe I should just wear slacks and a nice blouse but no damn it I want to wear a dress and show everyone that I can look like a lady sometimes!
If only I could lose this last 30 lbs I might be able to finally shop and not feel so bad about it!

Everybody Keeps Asking.......

Everybody keeps asking me how I am doing, my response to this is I am doing! Married life is not the easiest thing for me right now and I am trying I really am. It just seems like I am climbing a hill and never reaching the top no matter how hard I try. I just hope and pray it gets better some time soon because I really need it to.
As for the kiddos the school year is quickly approaching, YES! Just kidding, LOL! Right now is hectic with all the school supply, school clothes and school shoes shopping. There is just never enough money. It doesn't help either that the school seems to be making the supply list longer and longer each year knowing that money is going shorter and shorter these days.
My oldest is starting high school, :o( My three other school age kiddos are attending a brand new school this year so we shall see how it goes, it does help that their nana will be driving the school bus they will be riding on!
As for me I will be staying at home with my lil man, Cristian. Hopefully I can make some money babysitting or something.